Someday my pain will mark you… like it marked me.
Sometime late last year, an old friend dropped by unexpectedly. He came in through the backdoor, unannounced, much like his last visit. I didn’t even know he was in my house, and when I became aware of his presence, I prepared myself up for what I thought would be a short visit. But before I knew…
You taste so bitter and so sweet. I could drink a case of you.
And I’m crying over another break up. In just over half a year. My heart is in overdrive. It’s funny - how such a short-lived relationship can wreak just as much, probably even more havoc to your soul.
Nothing, I mean nothing really prepares you for these kinds of things. Not anticipating it, not initiating it, not even (thinking of) wanting it to begin with.
‘Everybody acts like I’m nuts. I’m not nuts, I just want to feel it all.’
- Fiona Apple
This week’s episode of Girls is not easy to watch for the Hannah Horvaths who willingly and selflessly subject themselves in unsettling situations that give them brief episodes of euphoria (and anticipated bouts of dejection and self-loathing)… all for the visceral experience and the story. It painted Hannah in a very promiscuous, young, and juvenile portrait if you look at it one dimensionally, but here is a girl who is on a downward spiral, vulnerable, and just wants to be happy.